charmainism

Today Yian Ying and I went to see Mr.Oh..
He's nice as usual.....
kinda thin...
but still cheerful n happy...^^ which is good...

we talked about some stuff...
what are we doing now bla bla bla...

just sharing bits of what he said...

he encouraged me to take up english...
said its better for someone like me...
and he encouraged me to make life notes..
he started a few years ago...
he showed us a small notebook with all the things he said n heard that he liked.... that's his life notes.
he said its for future reference...
I think I'm gonna do that...

Mr.Oh told us he fell in love when he was 23...or was it 22?
yea.. i'm kinda sure its 22.
so means still got lots of time for us la....
since i'm still 17 ma.... hahaha...

he and his wife are soo sweet lorh.....
sweet dao......

makes me wonder if i'll ever find someone i'm THAT in love with...
haih...
with valentines day around the conner...
it's gonna be a lonely n quiet one..
avoiding all things lovey-dovey.

well...... that's all that i remember right now...

oo...
and i went shopping n bought.....

a checked shirt...
and a levi's jeans...
so all i need is a pair of either heels or flats or both then i'm done with my chinese new year clothes.... ^^

If i never met you,
I wouldn't like you.
If I didn't like you,
I wouldn't love you.
If I didn't love you,
I wouldn't miss you.

But I did,
I do,
and I will.

Labels: life, quotes, truth

I came back to Malacca on feb7th..
it's been 5 weeks since i was back
n cause my dad was also fetching 2 of my friends..
We drove past a few lanes that i won't past even if i'm in malacca..

sooo many memories washed back...
good and bad...

i saw the road towards my school's back gate..
if it wasn't for me skipping school i wouldn't even know that route exist.

i saw the road towards my English literature teacher's class...tat was probably the best subject i've ever took in high school.

i saw the road where some of my high school friends and i took a shortcut during our school's annual cross-country race. when i was in form4, on a hunch i told my friends this was a shortcut, actually i wasn't sure at all... turn's out, it really was a shortcut. hahaha... we skipped from the last few people in the under18 section to the last few in the under15 section. hahahaha.. and we did that again in form5.. haha.. i wonder if anyone took that route again.. haha..
good times.. good times..

i passed by pay fong and the patronas near tun tuah..
(the memories are private and confidential)

i passed by the roti canai shop wher my friends and i went for breakfast almost everymorning in form5..

i remembered getting busted by my mom for sneaking out..
i cried so much over it..
it seems so far away now.

i love 17...

it was probably the best and the worst year of my life...
i thought i grew up because of that yeat...
i still do think that i grew up..
but i guess in some ways...
i haven't
and some of them are issues that need some working on..
but don't expect me to work on flaws that i love..
so excuse me for having flaws that i don't work on.

btw....
for those who don't know....

I'm 17 forever~~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!

and i don't care.

Someone once told me that you have to choose

What you win or lose

You can't have everything

Don't you take chances

Might feel the pain

Don't you love in vain

Cause love won't set you free

I can't stand by the side

And watch this life pass me by

So unhappy

But safe as could be

[Chorus:]

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Cause i'm just trying to be happy, yeah

Just wanna be happy, yeah

[Verse 2:]

Holding on tightly

Just can't let it go

Just trying to play my role

Slowly disappear, ohh

But all these days, they feel like they're the same

Just different faces, different names

Get me out of here

I can't stand by your side, ohh no

And watch this life pass me by, pass me by

[Chorus:]

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

Cause i'm just trying to be happy, ohh, happy, ohh

[Bridge:]

So any turns that I can't see,

like I'm a stranger on this road

But don't say victim

Don't say anything

[Chorus:]

So what if it hurts me?

So what if I break down?

So what if this world just throws me off the edge

My feet run out of ground

I gotta find my place

I wanna hear my sound

Don't care about all the pain in front of me

[Outro:]

I just wanna be happy

Ohh, yeah, happy, ohh, happy

I just wanna be, ohh

I just wanna be happy,

Ohh, happy 

 by Leona Lewis

i think it's God's or whoever's up there's way of punishing me..

i screwed up big time. 

heyy guys...

i know I haven't update my blog in ages.....
well, my blog was under construction...

and tada~~~~ my new blog layout...^^

nice right?

saki did it again....

hahaha.....

thanks soooooo much saki chew aka bitchilicious!!! =)

anyways...

since i have not updated it in forever...

i'm gonna update it within this few days... dun be surprise if u see more than 1 post per day.

i'm just gonna share my side of the story and a few insights of my life....

stay tuned~~~ ^^